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[goei]

[This post goes up pretty late on Wednesday night;]

this whole thing don't make any goddamn sense
'M good at fightin' an all but it's not like there ain't touchy feely types who can't also handle a fight
You got that damn prettyboy knight who looks like he aughta smell like roses
an' that golden guy who's all concerned 'bout people communicatin'
Even maid-san could probably make friends if she tried an' she sure's hell can fight
Prob'ly plenty others who can do both

So why me?
I ain't suited fer makin' friends
'M just a killer

They should've picked someone like Ryoma
Ryoma's always the one gettin' picked anyway
No one wants Okada Izou
S'that why I never get used right?

Comments

@harlequin

[cirquedesang]

I believe the operative was that we are meant to form bonds, not necessarily make friends.
And if that's the case, then your honesty is sure to be much more useful to you in that than my--

[Can't catch him, forced honesty-slash-closeness!!!

...But the "network posts your inner thoughts" can wombo combo with it. RIP.]

I refuse to open up to others as a general rule, because I couldn't handle if my real self would make others view me as lesser.
You're one of the most open people I've ever met.

[emptyself]

You don't open up because you want people to think that you're better than them?

How does that make sense?

[cirquedesang]

...It's the opposite.

[emptyself]

You want people to think that you're less than them!?

[cirquedesang]

No, I've had quite enough of that, thank you.

[emptyself]

Oh, this is a big misunderstanding, isn't it? I'm sorry.

But I still don't understand. If you're so afraid of reaching out because you don't want people to think of you as less than them, wouldn't it be significant for you if you did show your true self to others?

[cirquedesang]

It would be.

Which is why it being forced is such a problem.

[emptyself]

So you don't want to do it because you're being forced to?

[cirquedesang]

Exactly so.

[goei]

what th'hell are you talking about
I ain't open I want people to l-

I just gotta be left alone!
I don't wanna rely on anybody else!

[cirquedesang]

You can be an open book without relying on others.
It just means you're easy to understand.

[goei]

Tch

as if any of you understand me

[cirquedesang]

[Lining up the sniper shot--]

You're doing a very good job painting a picture for us.

An assassin by circumstance, with well-to-do friends - who you insist weren't friends at all - that ended up overshadowing you.
You're bitter about this, but can't hate that friend of yours, even though you seem to want to.
You say you don't want to make friends, but that's an obvious lie, and use "being a killer" as a reason to push people away, as if half of us haven't killed in our time.
You claim to not be a good person, but still have decided to protect people.

And that's all just from this post.

[goei]

That's
None of t-
Plenty of that's wrong!

I chose this, damnit! Don't make me sound like some sorta victim. Why th' hell wouldn't I wanna use the skills I got ta kill people??

Ryouma ain't my fuckin' friend anymore and I DO hate him!

And since when'm I protectin' anyone aah?

[cirquedesang]

Fine, you're not a victim, you are a very skilled, big scary assassin.
Would you have been an assassin if you had another choice, though?

And on protecting people... ah... what was that a few days ago about cutting down monsters? Is that not to protect anyone?

[goei]

Who said I didn't have a choice, bastard
before I'm an assassin I'm a sword genius and a manslayer so get that in yer fuckin skull

I fight monsters because I like fightin'

If it's useful that's just a side effect that it makes people wanna keep me around

[cirquedesang]

And yet you claim you don't care if people like you.

So why should it matter if people want to keep you around?

[fullmoonmutt]

is ur real self less liable to pat me on the head
bc if so id rather know that one

[cirquedesang]

No, that one is my real self.

[The difference is it'd be from, like... genuine affection instead of an attempt to get under your skin.]

[fullmoonmutt]

of coures it is
so whats the difference then
u seem like that version all the time to me

[cirquedesang]

The real version is still too young to stop stubbornly clinging to human connection and st--

[MESSAGE. DELETED.]

Good. Ideally, that will be the real self sooner, rather than later.

[Just let him become a weird eldritch cryptid in peace, humanity stat.]

[fullmoonmutt]

[ Whaaat was that... ]

were u typing something rly long just then
u ok celeste
u already said that was ur real self tho

[cirquedesang]

I'm fine.

[He's not. This forced truth nonsense is annoying...!!]

It... is. There is a slightly different nuance that even mentioning here tempts fate, but fear not, I'll always give you your due scritches.

[fullmoonmutt]

well good i actually like them

[ Wait. No. What the fuck?! Eli doesn't even think of trying to delete it; he's too baffled to. ]

fuck
i didnt write that
the phone just
did
shit is this what happened to that idiot izzo
what the fuck

[goei]

HAHAHAHAHA YOU REALLY ARE A DOG!!