NETWORK: @peach0341 (anonymous) [post soujuurou's wild ride]

[destage]

What would you consider the most unforgivable thing that a person could do to you? Something that someone could do, that they could never take back?

If it has been done to you, what happened? How did you treat that person afterward, if you kept in contact with them? If you didn't, do you regret ever severing off from them?

Have you done anything unforgivable? How did people respond to that--did they let you get a word in edge-wise to explain, or did they abandon you? Did you have to find your own way afterwards? How did it go for you, if so?

Do you think there's anything that one can do to earn forgiveness, depending on the severity of what happened? Do they deserve it? Does it depend? And is there a certain point that someone's allowed to give up on trying to find it, and should just stop trying to be good?

I'm curious as to what everyone's answers will be. Please don't give anymore info than you're comfortable with; these are just things that have been on my mind, lately. And please don't be rude to each other.

[this seems. infinitely more like a stream of conscious than anything actually coherent, but there's at least an attempt at maintaining some modicum of privacy. have at. be it on main or giving yourself a nice plurk-style anon-name, go for it.]

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[destage]

...I wish it was that simple, on all ends. I'm not trying to be obstinate or anything of the sort, it's just...

I've been in my business for a very long time. It's...all I really know how to do, and this is probably the first period of some sort of rest that I've ever had. It's letting me try new things and feel out what I can do, but I spent so long getting jerked around by them that it practically got ingrained in my head. It's...something I'm going to have to work on.

[...Wow, it feels weird to admit your managers basically traumatized you to the point of practically existing inside of your head, wow she doesn't want to think about that further.]

Please make no mistake, though. I do want that. I've just got a lot of hurdles I'm trying to get over first, but...

Maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Trying to be a person, instead of a perfect little doll like they wanted.

[emptyself]

That does sound hard. Making your own decisions after everyone made them for you is pretty terrifying, too. I understand that.

But I think that now that you've realized how difficult it is, you'll find a way to overcome it. Not all at once but little by little. I think.

[destage]

It feels like I'm a puppet without strings sometimes, without their directions.

...But I'm hoping that I can, and the faith you have in me...I appreciate it more than I can express. I want to find that way forward for myself, and seize it.

Thank you for listening to me. I imagine this was all a little silly...

[emptyself]

It doesn’t sound silly at all. But maybe it’s because, if I were in your situation, I’d also be terrified.

But you have good friends. Even if you have to make your own decisions, you don’t have to do it on your own.