NETWORK: @peach0341 (anonymous) [post soujuurou's wild ride]

[destage]

What would you consider the most unforgivable thing that a person could do to you? Something that someone could do, that they could never take back?

If it has been done to you, what happened? How did you treat that person afterward, if you kept in contact with them? If you didn't, do you regret ever severing off from them?

Have you done anything unforgivable? How did people respond to that--did they let you get a word in edge-wise to explain, or did they abandon you? Did you have to find your own way afterwards? How did it go for you, if so?

Do you think there's anything that one can do to earn forgiveness, depending on the severity of what happened? Do they deserve it? Does it depend? And is there a certain point that someone's allowed to give up on trying to find it, and should just stop trying to be good?

I'm curious as to what everyone's answers will be. Please don't give anymore info than you're comfortable with; these are just things that have been on my mind, lately. And please don't be rude to each other.

[this seems. infinitely more like a stream of conscious than anything actually coherent, but there's at least an attempt at maintaining some modicum of privacy. have at. be it on main or giving yourself a nice plurk-style anon-name, go for it.]

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[destage]

[She hates how confidently they speak about this.

There's a long time between the reply and actually saying something on her own end--a lot of anger, a lot of convincing herself that she's doesn't, there's nothing under there, she's checked so damn much for something that wasn't a marketable personality train she claimed as her own and she came up with nothing, it's--

It's frustrating, and deeply so. Because this person must have some kind of point. There always has to be something.

...

But what if what she finds when she finally breaks down all of the masks is ugly and unslightly?]

...I don't know if that day will be anytime soon. Your confidence is kind, but...

I shouldn't even be here. I'm supposed to be dead.

...

I don't really even know where to start.

[kandata]

I am supposed to be dead too. Sinking in the mire of my own failures. My last moment in life was despair, knowing I failed everybody who relied on me.

I do not know where to start either. But here we are, even if it was not our choice. I would not dare call this a second chance, but it is something.

I just wish I knew what it is.

[Anonymity really makes it easier for Kirumi to confess things, really]

[destage]

That makes two of us. Believe me.

[...Okay, no, now she's got to ask--]

...I hate to ask this, and if you do not feel comfortable answering I understand. But considering what you've brought up, I have to ask.

Does...the name Monokuma ring any bells to you?

[kandata]

[There are many things Kirumi thought could get said in this conversation. That bear's name was never one of them. She actually has to take some time before responding, so much Sayaka might think she got ghosted, but in the end Kirumi responds]

Yes.

[That's all she could bring herself to say. She's pretty shaken, really!]

...let's just call this cw very nasty thoughts

[destage]

[For a while, Sayaka is content to leave it be. She was stupid. She was an idiot for even bringing up something like that, and while she knows at least one person believes in what happened, nobody else is likely to. It's a little heartaching, but Sayaka can accept that.

What she doesn't expect is an affirmative answer.

An affirmative answer. An affirmative answer that someone she doesn't know was in one of these games, and what that could mean. Did she set the spark off for more of these games to be run? Did she end up doing something that would cause everyone to die along with her?

No, no, no, no, nonono--]

I'm so sorry.

[That's all she can manage to type. So many words she could say and that's just. It.]

sayaka noooooooo

[kandata]

Why are you apologizing?

[Kirumi didn't expect such a response. She has a feeling it's not a typical 'sorry to hear that' platitude]

consider: sayaka yes--

[destage]

[Because it's my fault. It's my fault I started this, it's my fault I did this, it's my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault--]

Because nobody should have to go through what that bear forced us through. No one.

I wouldn't even wish that on someone I hated.

[sayaka lied, as easily as she breathed,,,]

[kandata]

I agree it is cruelty beyond imagination. However, you should not apologize for something that is not your fault. You are not to blame.

Do not saddle yourself with the sins of someone else.

[For a brief moment Kirumi considered if, for some bizarre twist of fate, someone from the team behind that bear ended up here, but that's unlikely. No, it probably isn't that. Someone like that wouldn't apologize now.

So...maybe it's an offer of sympathy, after all, she thinks. Better try to dissuade]