[Shalem hisses and restrains calling her words in his native language-- she just has to deal with snake profanity. Not that anyone can understand it anyway.]
[There's a brief moment where it looks like Haruka is going to reach out to Shalem, but his hand stills before he can make contact and he withdraws it.]
[That's a narrow-minded thought, isn't it? And Shalem has to shake his head.]
No, it's primarily because it would be better for people to not see me, at all, because then I wouldn't see them. A person who does not hesitate to strike to kill, and knows exactly how to do so... Don't you think it's better to stay out of their radar?
[He did concentrate mostly on Mana and Mahaad, but that's because he was already piqued by them at the time. If he'd started out fighting the others? No, they would have been picked off by him.]
[Hey, his only point of reference for killing machines besides Shalem himself and Soujuurou are movies! Cut him some slack for being narrow minded!]
...It is. You could kill me at any time you felt like it, and my chances of fighting you off would be incredibly low, especially outside of the Nekyia.
[With his Persona, he has a very slim chance of winning a fight. Without that, he has no hope at all against someone with any actual real experience with combat.]
But I don't see why that means I should be taking this like "oh, gotta act with caution now, I should ghost him, what if Shalem snaps!". Almost everyone here could kill me just as easily as you if I wanted to, and I could die in so many stupid ways, too, that I'd never see coming. If you're gonna kill me, then go for it, I don't give a fuck. If you're not, then who cares if you get off on blood more than the average guy? Geez, stop being so dramatic.
[sorry shalem he failed his "have self-preservation" roll]
[Shalem's intimidation roll is low (10) but that's not as if he doesn't attempt at something, tired as he is. He leans into Haruka's space, to speak near his ear.]
I do wish you'd have more self-preservation than that. Or even cognition. If you had noticed there was a rhyme or reason to what I was doing... You would not say any of that.
I'm more than just a man who likes to make people bleed. Calculating monsters are always the worst. [And then he steps away.]
I don't know how exactly to tell you this in the most succinct manner without leaving room for doubt, or even ruining my own privacy. [Which means he can only rip off the band-aid, metaphorically.]
[ something about overhearing that makes soujuurou so uncomfortable that he will be quietly leaving to the opposite end of the room so he doesn’t have to hear more of that. ]
[ ...So basically, this guy has some screws loose.
It's good to know that for the future, if anything, because while he was caught up in recovery and whatnot he probably saw he needed to be like. Knocked out and all that. He hopes it isn't exactly a sign of something else...you know. But time will tell.
They accepted our answers to their question and allowed us to pass without incident.
[It's a bit more complicated than just that, but that explanation will suffice for now. (He is absolutely not mentioning that Jesse answered "balls," okay).]
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You are awake.
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I wish I'd not.
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[...He sighs, casting Diarama on him while he shakes his head. Shalem might have gone totally berserk, but...
At this point that might as well happen. Sure, the hot snake man is insane, just like everyone else. Why is Haruka the only normal one...]
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More than that, he looks tired. Like he wants to crawl to bed and not be disturbed for a very long time. Or forever.]
Even without a mirror, I know.
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...
[A soft sigh.]
Do you feel guilty?
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I never wanted to let out that side of myself again, nor to let others bear witness.
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Is it because you're afraid of what people will think of the real you?
[is this really the time for this conversation...]
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No, it's primarily because it would be better for people to not see me, at all, because then I wouldn't see them. A person who does not hesitate to strike to kill, and knows exactly how to do so... Don't you think it's better to stay out of their radar?
[He did concentrate mostly on Mana and Mahaad, but that's because he was already piqued by them at the time. If he'd started out fighting the others? No, they would have been picked off by him.]
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...It is. You could kill me at any time you felt like it, and my chances of fighting you off would be incredibly low, especially outside of the Nekyia.
[With his Persona, he has a very slim chance of winning a fight. Without that, he has no hope at all against someone with any actual real experience with combat.]
But I don't see why that means I should be taking this like "oh, gotta act with caution now, I should ghost him, what if Shalem snaps!". Almost everyone here could kill me just as easily as you if I wanted to, and I could die in so many stupid ways, too, that I'd never see coming. If you're gonna kill me, then go for it, I don't give a fuck. If you're not, then who cares if you get off on blood more than the average guy? Geez, stop being so dramatic.
[sorry shalem he failed his "have self-preservation" roll]
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I do wish you'd have more self-preservation than that. Or even cognition. If you had noticed there was a rhyme or reason to what I was doing... You would not say any of that.
I'm more than just a man who likes to make people bleed. Calculating monsters are always the worst. [And then he steps away.]
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Maybe if you weren't so damn cryptic, I'd have a better understanding on what it is you're like.
[But then Shalem gets to go pvp his worst fears so like, rip.]
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Are you feeling like yourself now?
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I don't know how exactly to tell you this in the most succinct manner without leaving room for doubt, or even ruining my own privacy. [Which means he can only rip off the band-aid, metaphorically.]
However... I was myself.
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Two of them....]
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It's good to know that for the future, if anything, because while he was caught up in recovery and whatnot he probably saw he needed to be like. Knocked out and all that. He hopes it isn't exactly a sign of something else...you know. But time will tell.
And they have a Palace to finish. ]
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... whatever the reason behind it, try not to let it happen again. I don't want to have to strike another blow against you.
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I can't control that. I've tried my entire life, and you have seen how fragile that control is. [Then he shakes his head.]
Best to run, when it happens again. ["When", not "if".] But for now... what is happening?
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[It's a bit more complicated than just that, but that explanation will suffice for now. (He is absolutely not mentioning that Jesse answered "balls," okay).]
It looks like our only way out is to go forward.
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