[There's a brief moment where it looks like Haruka is going to reach out to Shalem, but his hand stills before he can make contact and he withdraws it.]
[That's a narrow-minded thought, isn't it? And Shalem has to shake his head.]
No, it's primarily because it would be better for people to not see me, at all, because then I wouldn't see them. A person who does not hesitate to strike to kill, and knows exactly how to do so... Don't you think it's better to stay out of their radar?
[He did concentrate mostly on Mana and Mahaad, but that's because he was already piqued by them at the time. If he'd started out fighting the others? No, they would have been picked off by him.]
[Hey, his only point of reference for killing machines besides Shalem himself and Soujuurou are movies! Cut him some slack for being narrow minded!]
...It is. You could kill me at any time you felt like it, and my chances of fighting you off would be incredibly low, especially outside of the Nekyia.
[With his Persona, he has a very slim chance of winning a fight. Without that, he has no hope at all against someone with any actual real experience with combat.]
But I don't see why that means I should be taking this like "oh, gotta act with caution now, I should ghost him, what if Shalem snaps!". Almost everyone here could kill me just as easily as you if I wanted to, and I could die in so many stupid ways, too, that I'd never see coming. If you're gonna kill me, then go for it, I don't give a fuck. If you're not, then who cares if you get off on blood more than the average guy? Geez, stop being so dramatic.
[sorry shalem he failed his "have self-preservation" roll]
[Shalem's intimidation roll is low (10) but that's not as if he doesn't attempt at something, tired as he is. He leans into Haruka's space, to speak near his ear.]
I do wish you'd have more self-preservation than that. Or even cognition. If you had noticed there was a rhyme or reason to what I was doing... You would not say any of that.
I'm more than just a man who likes to make people bleed. Calculating monsters are always the worst. [And then he steps away.]
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...
[A soft sigh.]
Do you feel guilty?
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I never wanted to let out that side of myself again, nor to let others bear witness.
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Is it because you're afraid of what people will think of the real you?
[is this really the time for this conversation...]
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No, it's primarily because it would be better for people to not see me, at all, because then I wouldn't see them. A person who does not hesitate to strike to kill, and knows exactly how to do so... Don't you think it's better to stay out of their radar?
[He did concentrate mostly on Mana and Mahaad, but that's because he was already piqued by them at the time. If he'd started out fighting the others? No, they would have been picked off by him.]
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...It is. You could kill me at any time you felt like it, and my chances of fighting you off would be incredibly low, especially outside of the Nekyia.
[With his Persona, he has a very slim chance of winning a fight. Without that, he has no hope at all against someone with any actual real experience with combat.]
But I don't see why that means I should be taking this like "oh, gotta act with caution now, I should ghost him, what if Shalem snaps!". Almost everyone here could kill me just as easily as you if I wanted to, and I could die in so many stupid ways, too, that I'd never see coming. If you're gonna kill me, then go for it, I don't give a fuck. If you're not, then who cares if you get off on blood more than the average guy? Geez, stop being so dramatic.
[sorry shalem he failed his "have self-preservation" roll]
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I do wish you'd have more self-preservation than that. Or even cognition. If you had noticed there was a rhyme or reason to what I was doing... You would not say any of that.
I'm more than just a man who likes to make people bleed. Calculating monsters are always the worst. [And then he steps away.]
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Maybe if you weren't so damn cryptic, I'd have a better understanding on what it is you're like.
[But then Shalem gets to go pvp his worst fears so like, rip.]