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a winter labyrinth

断ち切るしかないんだろ
注いだ冬は心のラビリンス
後戻りなんて出来ないから
やりきるしかないんだろ
黒い気持ちと手を繋いだって構わない
抱きしめたっていいh

I have to break free
This pouring winter is my heart's labyrinth
I can't go back anymore, so
I have to finish this
I don't care if you took my hand with dark motives
I want you to hold me close

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[ what constitutes an utopia for an immortal being like joshua?

he's on the top of 104 in shibuya - his shibuya, his city of hopes and dreams and everything in between, and his city thrives, bouncing back from the depths when he has deemed it beyond saving. and next to him, by his side-- ]

Neku.

[ because of course. the one person who trusts him above all else, even despite everything.

but the illusion is too sudden, too fake, too much of a dream, when he knows that neku is safely tucked away beyond the grasp of whatever trickery this palace employs, and-- ]

You're not really here, are you?

[ because that's a nat20 perception roll so he's probably looking at someone who isn't neku. is it haruka? or someone else? jury's out at the moment, but that's not his partner for sure. ]

A shame, Haruka~

[The Neku in front of him is just an illusion—Haruka is in his own space, though whether he's in his own little utopia is up for debate.]

Is the shame that you wish this was real?

[That even someone like Joshua yearns for something.]

[ there's a slight tilt of his head. ]

Always, but Neku and I always belonged to different worlds, so it's also always been wishful thinking~

[ neku belongs in the realground, joshua tells himself, but there's always that impossible what if.

joshua's always been a realist, that way. a shame, but not really something that he can do anything about unless neku dies again--

but it's not about neku. this is about haruka.

folded arms, joshua looking at haruka thoughtfully. ]

You seem particularly invested in showing us happiness at the expense of your own.

What, you don't appreciate my hard work?

[Haruka looks back at him, smiling.

It seems like a genuine enough smile, but there's still something cold in his gaze.]

I'm happiest when my fans are happy.

[definitely not a lie!!!]