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shawarma time
[ some time after Atem's palace when everyone has had the time to get back from braphine's temple, and more importantly get that sand out of your everything (and enjoy NOT 40 degree Celsius weather)
everyone who was in Atem's palace will find themselves suddenly added to a group chat by joshua and he just sends a singular address
it's the address to a shawarma place that somehow magically has a big enough table to fit 14 people. amazing. we love fluid locations like this.
post palace dinner, y'all know the drill ]
everyone who was in Atem's palace will find themselves suddenly added to a group chat by joshua and he just sends a singular address
it's the address to a shawarma place that somehow magically has a big enough table to fit 14 people. amazing. we love fluid locations like this.
post palace dinner, y'all know the drill ]
no subject
[ he nods. ]
You said you saw dead people in yours?
no subject
[Jesse sighs.]
It's crazy dark, man. You know how I said I was a bad guy? That's why.
no subject
[ he tilts his head to the side, eyeing jesse again. ]
You've helped me and the others out so many times. I just can't accept that.
cw addiction, overdose, plane crash
Most of the people I saw? They came from this plane crash that happened right over town a few months ago. I knew the guy who was supposed to monitor the air traffic. Well, not like super well, but... [Jesse looks straight ahead solemnly.] He was my girlfriend's dad. She'd... [His voice breaks for a moment, after all this time, still not able to say out loud that Jane died.] If she'd still been around, maybe he wouldn't have been too fucked up to do his job right. And if I weren't dragging her down with me, she might still be around?
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he has a vague idea about what a plane is, but not entirely. still, he can infer from context that this crash could not have been anything but horrible. ]
So you blame yourself for the deaths of the people in the plane because your girlfriend died?
cw addiction, overdose, plane crash
Kinda? Like, obviously I never blew anybody outta the sky, but––my girlfriend's dead because of me.
Not on purpose, but...ain't matter much when she's still dead.
cw plane crash
[ soujuurou frowns, and the further he thinks about it, the more that his expression darkens with worry. ]
I don't know. It's complicated isn't it? At what point do the deaths stop being your fault? Everything's related in some sort of way. If her death caused her dad to mess up and lead to the plane crash... then is everything bad that happens because of that plane crash also your fault?
[ ... ]
What a horrible amount of weight you're carrying on your shoulders. That must be horrible for you, Jesse. It must be painful.
cw addiction, overdose, plane crash
[He's responsible for Jane's death and partly for the crash is the main thing he knows.
Jesse looks incredibly sad when Soujuurou shows him sympathy, because he wouldn't be able to say he deserves the most sympathy. He was going to sell meth to a single mom in a support group before realizing she had a kid. His fuck-ups got his friend and his girlfriend killed. And yet, he can't fully bring himself to tell Soujuurou about all of it right now.]
And it hurts.
[The most he can manage is admitting that it's painful to carry.]