IN THE FOREST OF THE LOST

[beathollow]

it's all too perfect.

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[beathollow]

Mm.

( how she's feeling... )

... Light... I've been so anxious since arrival, but... it's all gone now.

[vogelfrei]

I'm glad to hear it.

[ A weight that has lifted, huh...? Not a bad sensation to imagine, at least. ]

You can go wherever you want after all this is over - and be whatever you want to be.

[beathollow]

I'm looking forward to having the freedom to find out. ... I can't remember the last time I felt like this.

[vogelfrei]

It's hard to feel anything like that when your home is so suffocating.

[ In fact, McGillis doesn't think he's ever felt that feeling in his whole entire life, oops. ]

Are you keeping your options open on whether to go back to your world and live with your friends or come with someone from here?

[beathollow]

... I-

I don't want to go back to that place. But I want my friends. It's- I have to think about it.

( it's not like she can ask her friends to just... upend their lives for her, after all. if it would even be possible. )

[vogelfrei]

You still have some time.

[ And thank god for that. Three months are feeling very short and very long at the same time here. ]

I'm also in the market for a new world to live in - what we look for in that might not be similar, but we can cheer each other on in finding something suitable, right?

[beathollow]

( she looks up curiously. )

What are you looking for, if that's alright to ask...?

[vogelfrei]

I'm not entirely certain yet.

[ His goals were always tied to his own world and its intricacies, but that door is closed now. It's been a strange and slow process, trying to reconsider who he is and what he wants to be. ]

But I'd enjoy being in a world where I can do something meaningful - if that means the world is dangerous, that is welcome to me as well.

[beathollow]

Meaningful...

Then, that depends on what sort of meaning you want. ... But, I've seen you around the theater. Do you enjoy it?

[vogelfrei]

Mhm, yes. It's fun.

[ Standing on stage in the harsh spotlights, acting out ridiculous-sounding grandiose lines as an audience pays rapt attention... He's been enjoying it even more than he expected to. ]

But it's not something I could dedicate my life to, if that makes sense?

[beathollow]

I understand.

What do you find meaning in, McGillis?

( just like before, she's not being rude. she simply wants to understand. )

[vogelfrei]

Improving the rules of society and creating a better future.

[ Putting it in more broad categories than his very specific goals from home. ]

Gjallarhorn, the military I was part of before coming here, is also a world government institution. I can't go back to that and the work I started there, but I'd want a life in which I can help create an ideal tomorrow for a different world instead.

[beathollow]

There's a lot of places that could use that drive, I'm sure. ... But, I also hope that you can find a path that satisfies you, and lets you rest once you're done. It's the sort of work that's never truly done, I think, but-

You deserve to, also.

[vogelfrei]

I'm afraid I'm the kind of person who gets antsy when there is too much downtime - but I do appreciate the sentiment.

[ Incorrigible workaholic. He wouldn't know what to do with himself... ]

[beathollow]

Kanade's like that, too. Sometimes we have to drag her away from her computer...

( granted, this is the same slip of a girl who struggled to ring a wet wash cloth, so like. it isn't hard. )

Regardless... I think, if you just talk to the people who you're fond of here, you'll find the answer.